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disc_scratchokay so for my entire life I've been a silly little self inserter, right? my lego behaviour is just the latest drownage that ended up lasting longer than most (goddd its been at least 2 years now) but there's one thats older.. thats been here for like 10 years that i think abt on and off a lot still. specifically the point of bringing this up is, I needed his ass in america for lore reasons so i made him an international uni student. He, was studying the same thing I am now.
Honestly you can't have a character that long without it changing drastically throughout your life, (for reference that's my entire teenhood and then + some years, so good golly gee did he go through the wringer) but even saying that for one reason or another I don't really know when details of his current situation got blocked in. He just sorta morpths sometimes ! but good god has this current version of him been set in stone long before i even decided to commit to studying.
Dipshit, as a funny little lad, was originally started as a vent oc. He's kind of changed himself into a full character, but he really was just my way of processing things by playing dolls with the stuff I was facing or otherwise. Overall atm he still sort of plays that role but a lot of his things is me paying respect to his origins more than me freaking out about life.
This other guy however? that thing is pure escapism. If dipshit couldn't handle the stress of having a job, this dude is studying full time, helping with misadventures and picking up odd shifts. he's still really tired and stuff, but I guess my peak power fantasy is being a guy who can do stuff capably and be relied on by others GKHHG so.. my big question was always, "If this guy is escapism, will I have to change his situation to not overlap with what will probably become stress in my own life, or is this going to be like when I took a driving lesson and my driving dreams suddenly got a weird sense of realistic detail"
And at this moment.... I don't know! I want to say he's a bit of the latter at the moment admittedly, but nothing has properly happened yet. If this turns stressful will dipshit take his job? if this turns stressful will i need to give him something else to do to keep his visa GKHG
Honestly you can't have a character that long without it changing drastically throughout your life, (for reference that's my entire teenhood and then + some years, so good golly gee did he go through the wringer) but even saying that for one reason or another I don't really know when details of his current situation got blocked in. He just sorta morpths sometimes ! but good god has this current version of him been set in stone long before i even decided to commit to studying.
Dipshit, as a funny little lad, was originally started as a vent oc. He's kind of changed himself into a full character, but he really was just my way of processing things by playing dolls with the stuff I was facing or otherwise. Overall atm he still sort of plays that role but a lot of his things is me paying respect to his origins more than me freaking out about life.
This other guy however? that thing is pure escapism. If dipshit couldn't handle the stress of having a job, this dude is studying full time, helping with misadventures and picking up odd shifts. he's still really tired and stuff, but I guess my peak power fantasy is being a guy who can do stuff capably and be relied on by others GKHHG so.. my big question was always, "If this guy is escapism, will I have to change his situation to not overlap with what will probably become stress in my own life, or is this going to be like when I took a driving lesson and my driving dreams suddenly got a weird sense of realistic detail"
And at this moment.... I don't know! I want to say he's a bit of the latter at the moment admittedly, but nothing has properly happened yet. If this turns stressful will dipshit take his job? if this turns stressful will i need to give him something else to do to keep his visa GKHG
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